Archive for Living in India

Engagements & Greetings From Montego Bay, Jamaica

Hi all! I have safely arrived and have worked almost two weeks now on the cruise ship. Things are going well. I especially enjoyed our Mardi Gras set last night, where the band and I performed upbeat Mardi Gras tunes while the crowd danced and caught beaded necklaces being thrown down to them from the floors above.

Currently, I'm sitting at a seafood place in Montego Bay, Jamaica and wanted to share with readers that last night I attended an engagement party between our hotel director and one of our dancers. The hotel director is Indian, the dancer British! I haven't had the opportunity to ask them the questions I'd like to - I especially wonder if the girl has yet to visit India or meet his family, and what changes she foresees in her future if any. From what I've been told, the engagement came after only three months of dating, which I find interesting...but I will have to confirm this.

This isn't such a rare thing on cruise ships since Indians make up much of the staff and crew and we all live in such close quarters. On my last ship there were multiple Indian/"Westerner" relationships as well. Not me though, as much as I enjoy impressing them with my impeccable Hindi, -not! - although, the other day when I asked a guy from Delhi "App ka naam kya hai?" he smiled from ear to ear and I think even blushed before telling me "you did that so well!" But as I was saying, although there are multiple opportunities on ships, I still am in no mood to begin another intercultural relationship.

Signing off now, hope you're all doing great!

MDG

Let’s Get Real About Dating: Venting Time

I'd have to say one of the biggest differences MIM and I had during and after our relationship was the polar opposite cultural beliefs on dating and relationships. In the states, we begin dating from a young age. Many children begin referring to a boy or girl they like as their boyfriend/girlfriend in kindergarten! (That's about age six if you don't know).

By middle school and high school there's school dances, football games, and many other activities for young couples which seem to endorse dating. Still, even though the options to meet someone and date were always there, my first boyfriend wasn't until I was 18, the age of a legal adult and out of high school.

My first relationship lasted about a year and a half. Since then, I've never felt badly about having boyfriends, or going on dates, or ending something after a few weeks or months after deciding it wasn't right for me. It's simply called dating and it's what we do here in the western world. It allows us to learn more about who we are and what we want in a partner. It's completely normal.

Does it always lead to better decision making? No.

Could there be emotional issues such as broken hearts and scarring along the way? Sure.

Do I think it'd be nice to skip all the hardships and simply be provided a partner and to make it work no matter what? Read: Arranged Marriage. Perhaps only when I'm really fed up.

But it's a freedom I am personally very thankful for. With each new person in my life I've learned not only more about myself, but more about the world around me. I've lived experiences I would have never had, I've traveled to places I would have never seen, I've met people I would have never met and I've learned a great deal what I want and do not want in a partner. I've also learned how to be a better person/partner myself.

So it royally PISSES me off when MIM throws these experiences in my face to make me feel badly about myself just because he was brought up an entirely different way: schools segregated, absolutely no dating before marriage, arranged marriages, and so on.

MIM and I have kept in touch lightly since our breakup. We send messages that usually go along the lines of, "how are you doing", or, "what's new in your life?". We even had a short hang out moment when I returned home from the ship. But ending our relationship made MIM very angry and upset and at times when he's really feeling frustrated he takes his anger out on me. This is when he decides calling me a "whore" will do the trick. Because in his mind, me leaving him and now dating other people places me in this category. "A selfish whore," to be exact.

Yeah, we're getting real in this email, big time.

MIM wasn't always like this. He was very sweet and genuine. But throughout our relationship he did at times make me feel badly about having other men in my life previous to him. And now, he continues to try to make me feel bad even though he and I are over.

In many cases, I have been able to remain friends with past boyfriends because we have a mutual upbringing and understanding when it comes to dating and relationships. But I am beginning to see I am not able to remain being friends with MIM due to our extremely different views on the subject.

We had a good three years together, the longest relationship I've been in so far. And this is surely the part I hate; when things change so much you feel like you don't even know that person anymore.

I don't know MIM anymore.

A warning to girls who may be in relationships with men who feel the same way MIM does about your previous partners: Do NOT let these men belittle your experiences or make you feel badly about yourself. I would suggest you get out of any relationship that ever makes you feel this way. If they are making you feel this way, stand up for yourself the same way I recently have and say, "Don't you EVER think you can speak to me that way again, EVER!"

Being in an intercultural relationship is hard. But you shouldn't have to change anything about yourself to make it work. Find someone who accepts you for exactly who you are.

That's the lesson I take away from this entire experience.

 

House Hunters International: Urban Homes in Bangalore, India

I was excited to catch a new episode of House Hunters International last night - this time taking place in Bangalore, India, the place I called home in the summer of 2010. I now realize the show is very staged (which saddens me greatly!) but I still can't help watching. I like learning about the house hunters, in this case Indians Malika and Vir, a couple who families hail from north India but grew up in the states and were residing in the East Village of NYC before their move to India.

Malika and Vir had a large budget and therefore were looking at grand homes and condos I never got glimpses of during my own house hunting experience there. The very first home they looked at was in the suburbs of Bangalore. It was large and beautiful and came complete with their very own gardener and his family. When they noticed the gardener's home in their back yard and asked, "what's that house, it's pretty close by," the camera scanned to a dilapidated shed and a man roaming around in only a white sheet of cloth.

It was then that the realtor said, "That's the place where the gardener and his family stays. He comes with the house".

I almost died at such a statement! Never in my life, unless perhaps referring to a pet or animal, have I heard the words: he comes with the house.

Milika, the house hunter replies, "I don't know if I want a gardener because the way I understand it here is that you have to be responsible for their well-being. I think it would be too much because we're just moving." Later in the show she remarks to Vir on the gardener again; "I don't know about having a gardener and his family because you and I need a space of our own."

It was a reminder of just how closely the rich and very poor reside in India. I can't fathom working on a grand home each day to return to your shack each evening and how it must make someone feel as a human being. What would it feel like to know you "come with the house" as if you were a piece of furniture or wall hanging??

 

Store: New Items

Newly added to the store page: Indian style Curtains and Drapes!

One of my favorite items in my Indian home were the curtains. I loved the romantic Indian design and the way they retained privacy but allowed the sunlight and breeze to come through. Take a look for yourselves below and happy shopping!

Curtains at my home in India.

An Indian Car Commercial

The other night I was able to catch up with my friend in India. He called from his parent's place in Kakinada. The villa in Bangalore has been sitting empty these days, as when he's not visiting family his work takes him all over India for projects. I love hearing from him as he is my lifeline to India since I've left. When he calls from outside his home, I get to hear all the exotic birds, screeching crows, and honking cars again.

Speaking of cars, my friend told me he has been driving his dad's car around town. Since he left India for the U.S. ten years ago, he had to pretty much relearn how to do this. His dad is on edge whenever he takes it out; afraid that his son's going to kill someone. I don't blame him. I still don't understand how anyone maneuvers through cars, motorcycles, buses, bicycles, cows, dogs, and pedestrians, while watching out for potholes and the dreaded speed bump at the same time. He said it's like a game, and rather seems to be enjoying it!

He told me his dad's car is really old, and that I would absolutely love it. When I asked what kind it was, he said he'll send me a video. The next morning I awoke and watched it and cracked up. Not only is the car so freakin' cute, but the commercial's funny too! And he's right, I would have loved to maneuver through the Indian streets in this thing! Watch the commercial here!

Outsourced – The Sitcom

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I haven't heard much buzz about the new sitcom, Outsourced, yet. Have any of you been able to catch an episode? Here in the US it plays on Thursdays at 9:30pm eastern time on NBC. If you are living outside the US, hopefully you can reach their website, and you can catch full episodes by clicking on 'video' on the homepage.

I have watched each of the three episodes so far and since I am back home now, I get to watch them with my dad, who seems really interested in watching after he's been hearing about all-things-Indian for the past three years. It's funny when a joke is said on the show, and my dad will ask me, "is that true?" or, "is that really how it goes?" One time, after the show pointed fun at how Indians "bobble" their heads, - the Indian head shake - my dad asked me if I was able to do it, and he was impressed when I pulled it off quite well.  :)

I really hope the episodes will play in India, as when I lived there most of my favorite shows were blocked. But it's the opinions from Indians that I'm really looking forward to the most. Don't let this statement keep others from sharing your views, but because the sitcom takes place in a call center in Mumbai, and many of the jokes so far have been differences between Americans and Indians and are quite stereotypical, I can't help but wonder if Indians find the show funny or offensive.

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Anisha Nagarajan as Madhuri

I honestly can't imagine how this show will continue to have enough material to make it into a second or third season. So far they've pulled almost every joke in the book and it's only been the third episode: the Indian head shake, arranged marriages, "goopy", spicy food, sacred cows, guys dancing with guys, working in call centers, etc.

And here's one for Australians Sharell and Grace; they even throw an Australian woman into the mix, who drops Australian slang here and there, at which the Americans and Indians just go silent. ;)

Although I do wonder if Indians will find the sitcom funny or offensive, you should know the show does a good job of poking fun at Americans just as much - and at times Australians. It's basically a 'clash of the cultures' where each culture is teased by it's known general stereotype.

If you're able to take things lightly, and laugh at all our differences, I think you'd enjoy watching Outsourced. Even I was going back and forth between offensive or not offensive, and I soon came to the decision that the show could actually bring us all closer together, with the universal language of laughter.

The New Recruits – Can Capitalism Save the World?

If you have Netflix, you most likely know about their play now feature. This is where I get to watch a lot of documentaries. I can't get enough of them. I watched one last night called The New Recruits - Can Capitalism Save the World? which aired on PBS in June, 2010. I was very interested to discover one of the recruits sent to India was a woman - a tall, blonde, California woman named Heidi - and I was eager to watch her experience.

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Heidi

The concept of this movie is instead of giving charity to the poor, you sell things to the poor which generates profit. In this case the recruits were selling clean toilet facilities in Kenya, LED lights in India, and drip irrigation technology in Pakistan. It's a concept I have never heard of before, and if you're scratching your head wondering how the poor have enough money to purchase these goods, well, so was I. And, in most cases, they didn't.

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An Indian man tries out an LED light with solar charger.

Heidi was the only woman featured in the documentary and seemed to experience the most hardships as well. While the men were upbeat and positive and seemed to be enjoying their respective placement countries, images of Heidi were always quite depressing, like one scene where she is shown reading a newspaper with the headline, 34 yr old MBA student gang raped in Noida, near where Heidi worked and lived.

"It's really disturbing," Heidi says. "Not surprising, not surprising. It's not a safe place to be a woman, here in India. It's not a safe place to be a woman."

Written in her bio on the PBS website, Heidi says, "It’s as though India kisses my cheek one minute and slaps me across the face the next.”

I was so surprised to see a strong woman with a MBA in business from Standford University having so much trouble in India. In each shot she appeared more worn out and overwhelmed, a completely different Heidi from the one we were presented in the beginning of the film.

But while watching her struggles, I actually became more accepting of my own failed experience in India. I didn't wish for Heidi to have a bad experience - I actually thought it would be quite the opposite for her - but it was nice not to feel so alone; an intelligent woman who was provided eight weeks of preparation before making the trip also found India to be a struggle in many of the same ways I did. She helped me not to feel so alone and bad about myself after so many commenters on this blog attacked and hurt me for the emotions I was expressing while in India.

Netflix reviewers didn't cut Heidi or Christina, another white woman working in her office, any slack either; "I hate the two white blondes who are like type A personalities," one person wrote. "Their portrayal of India as male dominated and rapists and lawless land is very wrong. I think they have personality problems and lack insight."

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Christina (left) and Heidi in Uttar Pradash, India

You know what I think it is? I think it's being a woman. The men sent to Pakistan and Kenya appeared to be relaxed and enjoying their experience, while Heidi and Christina were covering their heads to hide their blonde hair and having to always play it safe whether it be traveling or following a curfew.

I thought this documentary was really good, and I enjoyed getting to see new ideas people were implementing to help the poor. I had no idea it would have such an effect on me, and it wasn't the effect I expected it would be. I highly recommend you watch it. If you don't have Netflix, you can watch it on PBS for free here. I would love to hear your take on the film.

India: Images from the Road

I recently pieced together a new video from India. This time it's my favorite images from the road. Some of them really pull on my heartstrings, like the street beggar and child in the very beginning, and the beautiful laughing girl at the very end. These images will always stay with me. Please watch it here:

India: Images from the Road

Now that I have been home for a month and have been able to refresh, reevaluate, and remember, while putting together this video I really missed India. I wish things could have been different, and that I was able to complete my stay the way I had hoped. Still, I will always have the photos and videos and memories, and perhaps one day the opportunity to go again, this time with a very different mind set.

Americans and Their Stuff

I have been busy the past couple days helping my friend pack up her entire apartment - basement included - and moving it into her childhood home. Times are tough as we know, and her parents were greatly affected by the crashing economy. Moving out of her own place would free up some extra bills, which she can then apply to her parent's. Sounds very Indian of her, doesn't it?

Her and I have been friends for 22 years. We have been told many times we look like sisters. But it wasn't until now that I realized she was a:

Compulsive shopper and closet hoarder!

I was dying to take a photo of her place with items strewn everywhere and post it so I could clearly get my point across to you, but that would be SO wrong to do to her! She was quite embarrassed by it; being very selective as to who she let inside to help pack. I felt like a horrible friend not knowing this about her sooner, but she had her ways of storing and hiding everything from view. Her place was almost always spotless when I came over, so I still have no idea where all the stuff came from. I think she must have trap doors underneath the floorboards and in the walls. I teased her to no end, even though I really think this is a serious problem that needs some attending to!

One thing I liked about India is how simply most people live. Many houses have very simple furnishings, hardly even a photo frame graces the walls. Americans live in surplus, it's true. What makes us believe we need to have so much stuff to be happy?

Lucky for me, I grew up with parents who pinched pennies and it rubbed off on me. We used to pack a toaster in our suitcase when we traveled so we could make toast in our hotel rooms and save money by not eating out. (There are so many more stories where that came from!) So growing up this way, I also like to live minimally and get rid of things I don't use frequently. 

There's a show on American television these days called Hoarders. It's hard to watch this show while eating. (I'd advise not to). But I always wonder if Indians happened to tune into this show what they would think of Americans and our inability to quench our never-ending thirst for stuff.

So, I arrived home at 3am last night from a 14 hour packing marathon, tired and sore, after eight of us packed, trashed, cleaned, hauled, unpacked, and shook our heads in astonishment during the entire process. The saying is true; the more you earn the more you spend. I was very thankful at this moment I have never earned enough to buy so much useless stuff!

Flowers in Her Hair

A lot of Indian women wear flowers in their hair.
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I have to admit before moving to India I didn't know this. I asked my friend, "what does it signify?" He wasn't sure if it signified anything at all. "They just wear it for the scent and look of it," he told me.

Whenever I would see the girls walking around with the flowers in their hair, The Cowsills would pop into my head, and I'd be humming the tune all day.

One day, my friend came home and surprised me with flowers of my own.
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I thought the flowers were so pretty, I took lots of pictures of them.

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Then, after sniffing their lovely scent over and over again, I put the flowers in MY hair.

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"You did that on your own?" My friend asked, shocked, once he saw the flowers in my hair. "How did you know how to do it?"

"I don't know," I replied. "I saw how the women were wearing them and pinned it in. It was so simple." He continued to look at me as if I had just spoken fluent Hindi to him, not as if I simply pinned a string of flowers in my hair.

And then, we went out - with the flowers in my hair - and I felt beautiful. :)

I will never forget these beautiful and amazing smelling flowers. What a perfect, natural way to look and smell wonderful. I kept mine as long as I could, which was about three days, before I had to toss them. But, they are found on almost every street corner.

They are hand strung with love. <3

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Want to Lose Weight? Go to India.

Besides this post I haven't discussed much about being sick during or after my trip to India. Just the other day I was finally near a scale and able to weigh myself since returning. I knew my clothes felt looser, but I was shocked when the scale read 10lbs less then it was when I left - a number I haven't seen on the scale in umm...years.

I know after reading this you're all just dying to know my super-secret diet tricks and since I'm such a nice, open, and sharing person, here you go!

~ How to Go to India and Lose Weight ~

Step 1. Get Delhi Belly.

Step 2. Walk around India aimlessly everyday, and make sure you ask Indians for directions - everything to them is just a short walk away. ;)

Step 3. Get too sick by unknown virus to leave your bed for days. (Make sure there is no one around to bring you food, this could sabotage your diet).

Step 4. Be so turned off by Indian food by this time that you are only eating boiled eggs, toast, or simply pickles daily.

Step 5. Continue to have more Delhi Belly.

Step 6. Fly around the world for 24 hrs straight and land 5,000 feet above sea level in Colorado. These two things combined should give you enough dehydration to cause headaches and vomiting for days.

Step 7. Still. More. Delhi. Belly.

Step 8. Go to the E.R. and watch them suck a pound of blood out of you. Oops, this won't help you lose weight because they'll also pump a pound of fluids into you. Nice try, though.

There you have it - how I was able to lose 10lbs by going to India in 8 simple steps. After everything I've went through, I should get to enjoy the numbers on the scale for just a little bit, shouldn't I? Because now that I'm back in the US surrounded by all my favorite foods and finally feeling like myself again, you better believe it ain't gonna last long!!!

Home…But Not For Long.

I reached home from Boulder Sunday at midnight. There was a crispness in the air and leaves have already begun falling from their trees. Instantly I craved pumpkin pie, apple cider, hay rides, fall clothes, knee length boots, Haunted Houses, etc. :)

The very next day MIM and I made plans to see each other (of course)! In the morning I brought him some of my mom's awesome French Toast with pecans and natural syrup and he happily ate it up. We spent the rest of the day doing some of our favorite things together that I missed so much, like having lunch in the park, sitting together at the bookstore sharing a coffee as he does his school work and I browse through books, and watching a movie together late at night. And, of course, talking! He never wanted me to stop telling him about India. It's amazing how now we both can relate when it comes to India. It feels - wonderful. I urge anyone in an intercultural relationship to go visit their loved one's country. The two of you will form such a deep bond from it.

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MIM took this photo of me in the park. It was a beautiful fall day. I couldn't wait to wear my cowboy boots again!

I believe I've mentioned part of the reason I chose to go to India was to give MIM some space as he finishes up Grad school. Also, so he could save money as, when I'm around we go out and eat out way too much. I'm basically just a bad influence which turned out to be very true this morning when he skipped three classes to spend more time with me. We are really dangerous together...nothing gets accomplished!

So, I'm both happy and sad to report that another event will pull me away from my MIM. Once reaching Boulder from India, I was offered a job singing aboard a cruise line. I couldn't pass up the opportunity to get paid for doing what I love. I have previously performed on a cruise ship and was itching to get back for some time now. Being away from MIM AGAIN sucks of course but, seriously, for him to concentrate on his studies and for us both to save money, this is best. We're going to jam pack all our favorite activities and hugs and kisses into another month's time and then I will be gone again for at least 6 months to a year.

I don't know what will become of this blog, unless you're really that interested in knowing what it's like to live and work aboard a cruise ship! To be completely honest with you, I don't know what will become of MIM and I, either. As much as we love each other we're starting to become very practical. It feels down to the wire now. We're getting older and we're starting to talk seriously about things like marriage and raising children. When I was in India, I actually started to think more about my childhood memories and the traditions my family upheld together. MIM wasn't thrilled when I recently asked for a Christian wedding in America and our children to be baptized for the tradition of it. His response made me realize everything was fine when it was I who compromised. When it was time for him to compromise on his religion and traditions, his answer was, "it won't work then".

We were silent for a bit but I can't say either of us were angry at the other. It felt like a complete adult decision that even though we love each other so much and can spend every minute of the day together, when it comes to marriage and raising a family and practicing religion we both want very different things. I know many people have mentioned this to me on my blog and I brushed it off like it was all so simple. Well, it was simple when it was I who gave in to anything MIM wanted. Now that I have requests of my own, I see that it is him who won't budge - for now at least. I think we're both a little peeved at the other, for he sees me as changing my needs and desires on him after almost 3 years together, and I see him as not being fair.

India had a huge effect on me. So for those of you who do go see your loved one's country like I suggested, be prepared to learn things about yourself you never imagined. Living in India made me value everything I had come to take for granted in America. This includes my family, traditions, and the kind of childhood I would want for my children. It's made me really question if I want to step so far outside of my comforts. Yes, for the first time it's made me question if MIM is right for me after all.